Random, unedited thoughts.

Haix, let me breath and just talk and talk about whats on my mind. I just hope that what I'll be saying will make sense, because at this point in time, nothing makes sense for me...

1. I want to empty my mind.

Sometimes, I wish I were crazy, or sick with a disease that will not let me think. How I wish I do not worry about any thing at all. I do not want to remember, but I do not want to forget either. (I told you, this won't make any sense). I want not to worry about anything, because, I'm tired. I'M FREAKIN' WEARY!! Can I just die? I wan't this to end now, I'm afraid to see my life, going down the drain.

2. Yeah... Love.

Sheeez, I hate talking about this, because I'm afraid,. Yeah! I'm afraid of love... No, I mean, I'm afraid of rejection... I've always wanted to hug you; to comfort you when you are tired; to cry with you when you need to cry. I've always wanted to tell you that you are the one who keeps pushing (and pulling) me when I'm tired, so that I can continue to move. but I can't.. I can't. So, yeah, love, yeah!

3. Friends?

Friendships requires emotional investments. When I make friends, I make real friends. I am so disappointed with what college turns out to be. You're friends now, tomorrow, you're not.. I want real friends. So thank you, JOY, MARK, and MARVIN.. Please, continue to be what you are...

I wonder if anybody reads this at all,..

Ne~!